Diary of a Traveling Monk - Volume 13, Chapter 1 - August 1, 2012
By Indradyumna Swami
After almost a year of traveling to temples throughout the world, I came back to Poland in late June for our annual Festival of India tour along the Baltic Seacoast. The 300 tour devotees had already arrived at our base and had been preparing for the two-month adventure.
I was jet-lagged and exhausted after my flight from Los Angeles. Warsaw‚Äôs airport terminal was crowded with people returning from vacation, and as I queued at immigration I thought about the quarter-century I had been preaching in Poland.
‚ÄúIt‚Äôs Kali-yuga,‚ÄĚ I thought, seeing the spirit of enjoyment that prevailed amongst the holiday-makers as they waited for their luggage at the carousel. ‚ÄúThe results of preaching are not always obvious. One has to be patient.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúYou‚Äôre late,‚ÄĚ said a businessman next to me picking up a bag from the carrousel.
‚ÄúNo,‚ÄĚ I said, ‚Äúmy flight was on time.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúI mean you‚Äôre late for the festival,‚ÄĚ he said. ‚ÄúThe Festival of India. Don‚Äôt you guys usually start in the third week of June? It‚Äôs almost July.‚ÄĚ
I broke into a smile.‚ÄúYes, you‚Äôre right,‚ÄĚ I said.‚ÄúThis year we‚Äôve had to start a little later because the school year was extended by a couple of weeks. Our first program is tomorrow.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúOh, I see,‚ÄĚ he said. ‚ÄúI‚Äôll see you in July in Rewal. My wife and I always plan our vacation around your festival. We visit the festival website quite often. Keep up the good work!‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúWell, that five minutes of patience sure paid off,‚ÄĚ I thought, watching him head for the exit.
The next morning I took a flight up north to our base. Amrtananda dasa picked me up at the airport.
‚ÄúWe‚Äôre going straight to the first festival from here,‚ÄĚ he said. ‚ÄúWill you be up to giving the lecture?‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúI will,‚ÄĚ I said. ‚ÄúI look forward to it all year.‚ÄĚ
We drove for two hours and as we pulled up at the festival site, I heard the clear, sweet notes of kirtan ring out. The spires of our twenty-five colorful tents depicting various aspects of Vedic culture were clearly visible even from a distance and I walked towards the site in anticipation of seeing the tents filled with happy, curious people. I could feel the excitement in the air. Our show was a grand event with a huge stage, flashing lights and a powerful sound system. Standing at the festival entrance I saw hundreds of beautifully dressed devotees serving prasadam, painting gopi dots on children‚Äôs faces and helping festival-goers put on saris for the evening. A woman walked past me and gasped, ‚ÄúOh my God!‚ÄĚ as she got her first glimpse of the spectacle before her.
‚ÄúQuick, Srila Gurudeva,‚ÄĚ the stage manager said, running up to me. ‚ÄúYou‚Äôre on in less than a minute.‚ÄĚ I put my reverie to one side and followed him across the festival site and up the stairs to the stage.
There was a devotee waiting in the wings with a Bhagavad-gita. ‚ÄúIt‚Äôs the same one you used last summer during your lectures,‚ÄĚ he said smiling.
I clasped the book tightly. ‚ÄúLike meeting an old friend,‚ÄĚ I said.
I walked onto the stage and looked out at the benches which were filled with hundreds of guests all looking expectantly at me.
‚ÄúLadies and gentlemen,‚Äô I began. ‚ÄúFor the next twenty minutes I‚Äôd like to share with you another very beautiful aspect of India‚Äôs ancient culture: her spiritual wisdom.‚ÄĚ
Before ending, I invited the people to purchase a Bhagavad-gita at the book tent. ‚ÄúI‚Äôll be walking around the festival site for the next few hours,‚ÄĚ I added, ‚Äúand I‚Äôll be happy to sign any copies you buy.‚ÄĚ
The audience applauded. When I descended the stairs I was met at the bottom by a man who had already bought a copy of the Bhagavad-gita. His frown contrasted with the sea of smiles I had seen in front of me a minute before.
‚ÄúPlease,‚ÄĚ he said, ‚Äúcould you sign this right now, right away?‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúSure,‚ÄĚ I said, taking the book from his hand. ‚ÄúSo, you appreciated the philosophy?‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúNot at all,‚ÄĚ he said. ‚ÄúI have no interest whatsoever.‚ÄĚ
I stopped writing. ‚ÄúThen why are you buying the book?‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúMy wife is fascinated with your festival and particularly with your talk,‚ÄĚ he said. ‚ÄúBut I‚Äôm bored stiff. I want to go home. We made a deal that if I buy her the book then we can leave immediately.‚ÄĚ
I couldn‚Äôt help but smile as I signed my name.
Then another man came up to me. ‚ÄúYou said you‚Äôd sign the books, right?‚ÄĚ he said.
‚ÄúI did,‚ÄĚ I replied.
‚ÄúThen please sign here,‚ÄĚ he said, pointing to a blank space inside the book‚Äôs front cover.
‚ÄúAre you buying this book to go deeper into spiritual life?‚ÄĚ I asked.
‚ÄúOh no,‚ÄĚ he said. ‚ÄúI‚Äôm an atheist. In fact, I regularly debate against the concept of God.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúThen why in the world are you buying this book?‚ÄĚ I asked.
‚ÄúI can‚Äôt defeat the arguments you presented in your talk for the existence of God,‚ÄĚ he said, ‚Äúso I want to study this book and understand them better.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúGreat,‚ÄĚ I said and handed him my card. ‚ÄúHere‚Äôs my email address. Maybe we can debate online.‚ÄĚ
He smiled. ‚ÄúThat‚Äôs a great idea,‚ÄĚ he said.
The next morning I congratulated the devotees on the success of the first festival. ‚ÄúBut let‚Äôs not rest on our laurels,‚ÄĚ I said, quoting the ancient Greek saying. ‚ÄúWe have forty-seven more to go!‚ÄĚ
A large group of us left after a hearty breakfast to perform harinama on the beach near the town where we would hold the second festival. The invitations went out quickly.
‚ÄúCan you give me six?‚ÄĚ asked a woman.
‚ÄúNo need for six,‚ÄĚ I said. ‚ÄúThey‚Äôre not tickets. They‚Äôre invitations. The program is free.‚ÄĚ
A woman sitting on the sand nearby spoke up. ‚ÄúBut don‚Äôt think it‚Äôs something cheap because it‚Äôs free,‚ÄĚ she said. ‚ÄúI‚Äôve attended seven of their festivals. Everything is very nice and professional. I have only one complaint.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúUh oh,‚ÄĚ I thought. ‚ÄúHere it comes. She‚Äôs going to talk the other woman out of going.‚ÄĚ
I forced myself to smile. ‚ÄúReally?‚ÄĚ I said. ‚ÄúWhat is it?‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúWhy does the festival have to start in the evening?‚ÄĚ she said. ‚ÄúWhy not early morning? What better things do we have to do? Tell me.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúIt‚Äôs a good idea. We‚Äôll consider that,‚ÄĚ I said. The harinama party was disappearing into the distance. ‚ÄúI have to catch up with my friends now, but please do come tomorrow.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúDefinitely,‚ÄĚ said the woman. ‚ÄúI‚Äôm always an hour early.‚ÄĚ
True to her word, the next afternoon the woman was sitting alone in the front row of the benches an hour before the show began. Soon, though, the grounds began filling up, and fifteen minutes before show time there wasn‚Äôt an empty seat. The stage program began, and I noticed a disheveled man holding a bouquet of flowers looking for a seat. Eventually he sat down on the ground in front of the stage. The people sitting near him moved away. I thought about asking our security team to escort him out; he looked harmless, though, so I decided to let him stay. But during my lecture, he started yelling something. When I didn‚Äôt take any notice, he yelled again, and then again until the security team pulled him to one side.
After my talk I left the stage and started down the stairs where a woman and her pre-teen daughter were waiting for me. ‚ÄúDo you remember me?‚ÄĚ the girl said.
‚ÄúI‚Äôm sorry, I don‚Äôt,‚ÄĚ I replied. ‚ÄúI meet so many people every day.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúWell, I remember you,‚ÄĚ she said. ‚ÄúI‚Äôve been coming to the festival each summer since I was four years old. I‚Äôm ten now. Last year you gave me a sari and some bangles. After the festival you sat with me and my friends and explained that God is a young boy who plays a flute and herds cows. Every night before going to bed I pray to Him to let me join Him and His friends herding the cows.
‚ÄúYou do?‚ÄĚ I said.
‚ÄúYes, she does,‚ÄĚ said her mother.
‚ÄúMy mother bought the Bhagavad-gita for me today,‚ÄĚ she continued. Her eyes shone with excitement. ‚ÄúCan you please sign it?‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúOf course,‚ÄĚ I said, ‚Äúbut will you be able to understand it?‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúNot now,‚ÄĚ she said, ‚Äúbut Mom will put it away for me until I am older.‚ÄĚ
Later that evening when I was walking around the festival site the unkempt man came out of the prasadam tent and handed me the bouquet. ‚ÄúThese are for you,‚ÄĚ he said.
It was obvious he had not bathed in weeks and the smell of liquor wafted around him. I saw that his hands were encrusted with dirt and covered with sores.
‚ÄúThat‚Äôs very kind of you, but I must move on.‚ÄĚ I said as I continued on my way.
‚ÄúWait!‚ÄĚ he called out.
I turned back.
‚ÄúPlease,‚ÄĚ he said. ‚ÄúIt was my best friend‚Äôs dying wish that I give the flowers to you. That‚Äôs what I was trying to say during your talk. We lived over there.‚ÄĚ He pointed to a small bridge over a nearby river. ‚ÄúWe lived underneath the bridge. My friend looked forward to your festival each year. You may not remember us, but you gave us free food each time we came. You‚Äôd take us behind the tent over there and bring us big plates of food. But what my friend liked most was your lecture. Two years ago he asked you for a book and you gave him the big one for free.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúWas it the Bhagavad-gita?‚ÄĚ I asked.
‚ÄúYes,‚ÄĚ he said. ‚ÄúBut he never let me read it. He said I wouldn‚Äôt understand it. A couple of months ago his liver gave out; too much liquor. But he was peaceful when he died. A few minutes before he passed away he gave me the few zlotys he had and told me to buy flowers for you when the festival came to town this summer.‚ÄĚ
I took the flowers and held them close to my chest. ‚ÄúThank you,‚ÄĚ I said.
‚ÄúI listened to your talk tonight,‚ÄĚ he said. ‚ÄúI was surprised that I actually understood quite a lot of it. I have my friend‚Äôs book and I‚Äôm going to start reading it.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúI wish you all the best,‚ÄĚ I called out as I watched him walk back to his home under the bridge.
The Ramayana theater, one the most popular items of our show, was just beginning when I noticed a dark rain cloud in the distance in an otherwise clear blue sky. The cloud reached us within minutes and showered rain on the festival site. At first the audience seemed unsure what to do, but as the rain got stronger everyone jumped up and began running for the shelter of the tents.
‚ÄúIt will only last a minute,‚ÄĚ Rajesvari-seva dasi, our Master of Ceremonies, called out over the loudspeakers. ‚ÄúIn Vedic culture it‚Äôs considered very auspicious when it rains and shines at the same time! It‚Äôs called a divya-snana, a divine shower.‚ÄĚ
To my amazement most of the audience members returned to their seats and sat in the rain, obviously convinced that it was something special. The shower passed and the play continued.
On my way backstage to check on the next performance, an elderly man approached me and asked if I was still signing books.
‚ÄúDo it quickly,‚ÄĚ he said. ‚ÄúI don‚Äôt want my wife to see. She doesn‚Äôt want me to read this book because she‚Äôs afraid I‚Äôll leave home and join you in your travels around the world. She doesn‚Äôt like it when I listen to your classes on the internet.‚ÄĚ
I chuckled. ‚ÄúI see,‚ÄĚ I said quickly signing the book and handing it back to him. He put it in his bag, looked around to make sure his wife wasn‚Äôt nearby, and sauntered away nonchalantly.
As I passed by the rows of benches in front of the stage I overheard a woman calming her frightened child. ‚ÄúDon‚Äôt be upset, darling,‚ÄĚ she said. ‚ÄúIt‚Äôs just Krsna killing the Putana witch. You know, we‚Äôve read that story in the Krsna book we bought at the festival last year.‚ÄĚ
I shook my head. ‚ÄúCouldn‚Äôt ask for a more obvious sign that we‚Äôve been at it for over twenty years,‚ÄĚ I thought.
Moments later a woman approached me with a Bhagavad-gita in her hand. ‚ÄúI saw you signing books,‚ÄĚ she said, ‚Äúbut I didn‚Äôt want to bother you with mine.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúNo,‚ÄĚ I said. ‚ÄúIt‚Äôs not a bother. I‚Äôd be happy to sign it.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúIn your lecture,‚ÄĚ she said, ‚Äúyou spoke about the duality of material existence, how there is a combination of happiness and distress in everyone‚Äôs life. But I would have to disagree.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúAnd what is your disagreement?‚ÄĚ I asked.
‚ÄúThere is no duality in my life,‚ÄĚ she said. ‚ÄúI only know suffering. And I‚Äôve become desperate to the point where I‚Äôm thinking about taking my life. But your talk today gave me hope that there is a positive alternative, as you called it. I will spend the next few weeks seriously studying this book.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúMy spiritual teacher would be very happy to hear that,‚ÄĚ I said.
Then I went with a few devotees to distribute some leftover invitations on a nearby street. Near the entrance to the festival grounds there was a gypsy girl of about ten years old playing an accordion. There was a hat at her feet that had five or ten zlotys in it. She was looking longingly at our festival.
When she reached the end of the song, I asked her whether she would like to go to the festival.
‚ÄúYes, so much,‚ÄĚ she said. ‚ÄúBut I have to …‚ÄĚ Her voice trailed off.
‚ÄúWhat time do you finish working?‚ÄĚ I said. ‚ÄúDo you work through the evening?‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúAre your parents nearby?‚ÄĚ I asked.
‚ÄúMy father is there,‚ÄĚ she said pointing towards a side street where a man played another accordion with a hat at his feet.
I crossed the street and started talking to him. ‚ÄúHow much does your daughter earn per evening with her street performance?‚ÄĚ I asked after a while.
I saw him hesitate. ‚ÄúAbout fifty zlotys a day,‚ÄĚ he said.
‚ÄúIf I give you the fifty zlotys will you allow her to come to our festival for the rest of the evening? You can see how much fun the children are having. I‚Äôll introduce you to one of the ladies who will look after her. We‚Äôll bring her back here when the festival is over.‚ÄĚ
He looked surprised. ‚ÄúBut she has a sister, and if she goes her sister will want to go as well.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúNo problem,‚ÄĚ I said with a smile. ‚ÄúThey can both come. I‚Äôll give you 100 zlotys.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúOK,‚ÄĚ he said. ‚ÄúI thank you.‚ÄĚ
I introduced the girls and their father to one of the devotees. She took the girls by the hand and walked with them towards the festival site.
As we continued to walk, a devotee turned to me. ‚ÄúIs it right to give those people money?‚ÄĚ he said. ‚ÄúYou don‚Äôt know what they‚Äôll do with it. They may use it for sinful activities.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúPossibly,‚ÄĚ I said. ‚ÄúBut the benefit those young girls will get by chanting, dancing and taking prasadam is incalculable.‚ÄĚ
The devotee was insistent. ‚ÄúBut you‚Äôll get the bad karma if they use the money the wrong way.‚ÄĚ
I stopped and turned to face him. ‚ÄúThat‚Äôs not a problem. I‚Äôll take the karma and you take the blessing that comes from engaging them in Lord Caitanya‚Äôs service. Do we have a deal?‚ÄĚ
He was silent.
I was approached by yet another woman with a Bhagavad-gita as soon as we entered the festival grounds.
‚ÄúI didn‚Äôt catch much of what you said in your talk,‚ÄĚ she said, ‚Äúbut it was enough to realize your philosophy and way of life are special. I‚Äôm curious, so I bought the book. I‚Äôm just doubtful that I will be able to understand it.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúWhy not?‚ÄĚ I said.
‚ÄúBecause I‚Äôm a waitress in a bar,‚ÄĚ she said. ‚ÄúI‚Äôm engaged in many bad things.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúIt doesn‚Äôt matter. I‚Äôm confident you will still be able to understand this philosophy,‚ÄĚ I said.
‚ÄúIf you say so,‚ÄĚ she said, taking the book from my hand. ‚ÄúI‚Äôm off to work now. I‚Äôll begin reading it tomorrow.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúMaharaja, do you really think a woman like that can understand the Gita?‚ÄĚ one of the devotees asked me. ‚ÄúI mean she lives a pretty low life.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúIt‚Äôs possible,‚ÄĚ I replied. ‚ÄúNot long ago both of us lived sinful lives like her, but now we understand the Gita. Isn‚Äôt that right?‚ÄĚ
It was time for the final kirtan, the highlight of every festival. Devotees chant and dance together in great happiness and engage festival-goers in the yuga-dharma of chanting the holy names. The cultural entertainment that comes before the kirtan‚ÄĒthe theater, the puppet shows, the bharata-natyam dancing, the martial arts display‚ÄĒis just to give people faith to chant Hare Krsna with us. And many do. That night was no exception: the kirtan went on for forty-five minutes and more than seventy-five children and some of their parents danced with us. Just before the kirtan ended I happened to glance towards the shadows in the back. The homeless man was there, dancing in jubilation.
When the kirtan finished and the applause died down I left the stage to say goodbye to the people as they left the grounds. I was met at the bottom of the stairs by one final man holding out a Bhagavad-gita for me to sign.
‚ÄúI can‚Äôt believe I‚Äôm standing here,‚ÄĚ he said, handing the Bhagavad-gita to me.
‚ÄúWhy is that?‚ÄĚ I asked.
‚ÄúI‚Äôve seen you people at Woodstock for many years,‚ÄĚ he said, ‚Äúbut unlike my friends, I never once visited your village there, not even to eat. I had zero interest in anything you were doing. I thought you were all crazy. ‚ÄúThen two days ago I got a ticket for speeding near here. I felt the officer was wrong so I decided to contest the ticket. I was given an appointment for this afternoon at the police station, directly across the street from your festival.
‚ÄúLo and behold, when I‚Äôm driving up I see you people here. ‚ÄėNo way am I going to that event,‚Äô I said to myself.
‚ÄúWhen I entered the police station, there was a long line of people and an officer told me to sit down and wait. I was right next to the window and could hear your event loud and clear. Just as I settled in my seat, you started your lecture from the stage. It seemed as if you were only ten feet away. I had no choice but to listen as you gradually developed your talk, touching on many aspects of your philosophy.
‚ÄúThe line of people in front of me hardly budged and I had to sit there and listen to your whole speech. And you know what? The more you spoke, the more interested I became. In fact, I was very impressed. By the end you had me completely convinced.
‚ÄúWhen the police officer finally called me, I filed my complaint and then walked straight over here to your book tent. I immediately bought a hardcover Bhagavad-gita. I plan to start reading it on the beach tomorrow.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúNow that‚Äôs a great story,‚ÄĚ I said. I handed him the book and my card. ‚ÄúLet‚Äôs keep in touch.‚ÄĚ
In front of the stage I saw small groups of devotees and guests speaking together. It seemed no one wanted to leave, including the father of the gypsy girls who walked up to me with his daughters in tow.
‚ÄúDon‚Äôt they look beautiful?‚ÄĚ he said. The girls grinned, radiant in their saris, bangles and gopi dots. ‚ÄúThey had such a good time. I‚Äôm so grateful to you.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúIt‚Äôs my duty,‚ÄĚ I said.
‚ÄúIt‚Äôs more than that. It is kindness,‚ÄĚ he said. ‚ÄúI wish I could give you something in return, but we are so poor.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúThe gratitude we receive from people like you makes everything we do worthwhile,‚ÄĚ I said. ‚ÄúWe‚Äôve received so much appreciation lately that I‚Äôm convinced one day the whole world will dance alongside us in ecstasy. And why not? It‚Äôs foretold in scripture.‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúVictory! Victory! Victory! I behold something wonderful: all the inauspiciousness of the living entities is destroyed, no one is going to hell, Yamaraja has no more work to do and the effects of Kali-yuga have ceased to exist. This is because all over the world an increasing number of Lord Visnu‚Äôs devotees are singing His names while dancing and playing musical instruments.‚ÄĚ
[ Nammalvar, ( 3102 BC ) Divya-prabandha, Tiruvaymoli 5.2.1 ]
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