Vaisesika Dasa: A letter to my dear false ego…
Vaisesika Dasa: My dear false ego,
It has taken me quite some time to find the courage to write you this letter, and I realize that it may come to you as a surprise since we have been together for so long and we’ve been through so much.
I know also that I’m the one who started this relationship in the first place, but I’ve changed. I now know that what we had was unhealthy: especially my depending on you to watch and appreciate every move that I made, and your telling me that I was great, wise, clever and so on, even when I wasn’t.
The fact is, I’ve met someone who has changed my life by showing me how to serve Krsna who resides in my heart and who “grants contentment in exchange for even a shadow of devotion, who oversees the principles of righteousness, and who delivers the universe with His names”; by being true to Krsna, I’ll be fully happy and satisfied and will have no reason to embellish who I am or what I’ve done.
I’m not only very confident about my new life and relationship, but I’m also very excited about it. I’m pretty sure that you know who it is I’ve met because you remarked about how much time I was spending reading His books.
Please know that my decision is firm and therefore, I request you to make things easy on both of us by not contacting me anymore. I’ve taken the liberty to clear out your things and have put them neatly in boxes in the detached garage. Please come get them when I’m not home and kindly leave your key along with any copies of keys that you may have made.
Please don’t contact me or write back to me. It will only make it worse. I suggest that we both make a clean break. I’m sure that you’ll find someone else.
Good luck and goodbye forever,
“O my Lord, there is no limit to the unwanted orders of lusty desires. Although I have rendered these desires so much service, they have not shown any mercy to me. I have not been ashamed to serve them, nor have I even desired to give them up. O my Lord, O head of the Yadu dynasty, recently, however, my intelligence has been awakened, and now I am giving them up. Due to transcendental intelligence, I now refuse to obey the unwanted orders of these desires, and I now come to You to surrender myself at Your fearless lotus feet. Kindly engage me in Your personal service and save me.” (Sri Caitanya-caritamrta Madhya-lila 22.16)
Om Tat Sat