{"id":1938,"date":"2019-09-29T03:42:52","date_gmt":"2019-09-29T01:42:52","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.dandavats.com\/?p=1938"},"modified":"2019-09-29T03:43:05","modified_gmt":"2019-09-29T01:43:05","slug":"who-am-i-nobody","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.dandavats.com\/?p=1938","title":{"rendered":"Who am I? Nobody!"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/i.imgur.com\/SEcjWhm.jpg\" alt=\"\" \/><\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/www.dandavats.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/two2w.jpg\" align=\"left\" alt=\"Hare Krishna\" \/><strong>Written by an insignificant soul <\/strong><\/p>\n<p><em>This is how I have always felt in my devotional life. I have always been in awe of fantastic devotees with  their  enthusiasm  for preaching  and  bringing  Krishna into the lives of so many souls to rescue them from this material life. I  have always felt  that I  am no one,  I  know  nothing  and  I certainly would never be able to help anyone how wrong I was.<\/em> <\/p>\n<p>A colleague, Andrew, began to have headaches  at the  end  of  January.  It took about 3 weeks to discover that he had a brain tumour and needed urgent surgery.  Andrew&#8217;s  father  died  of cancer and had spent a year travelling the world because he had feared that he never wanted to be like his father who had always put off enjoying life until later because it was not meant to be. <\/p>\n<p>Andrew had a successful operation and  within  days  was  at  home recovering. However, the tumour was malignant.  Andrew  was  devastated but determined to fight.  On  Tuesday  18  April  Andrew&#8217;s stepfather  phoned  the  office  and explained that Andrew had been in a semi-coma  for  a  few  days  and  his condition  was  critical.  He  suggested that colleagues visit to say goodbye. Everyone  was  devastated  by  this news.  My  manager  intended  to  go immediately, I agreed to go with him because I felt helpless sitting at my desk worrying about him. <\/p>\n<p>It was awful seeing a body that was unrecognisable as a person I had associated with him for  many years. Andrew had a huge bandage on his head. His eyes were struggling  to  focus.  He  had  a tracheotomy in his throat so he could not speak and a massive bandage on his  right  hand  to  stop  him  from pulling  his  drips  out.  The  left  hand side of his body was paralysed. It was a terrible sight but I put this aside and spoke  to  Andrew  as  I  would  have done if he was healthy. As I went to leave  and  said  goodbye  to  him,  he raised his right hand to wave bye to me.  Andrew&#8217;s  mother  was  amazed, this was the first time he had done this since going into a coma. I felt really pleased that he was aware that I had been with him.<\/p>\n<p>That  evening,  I  spoke  to Antardwip Prabhu  on  the  phone.  I  explained about the awful day I had. Antardwip advised that I should play the Maha Mantra to Andrew. I declined and said that Andrew was  in a  ward and his family  did  not  appear  to be  from  a religious  background.  My  real  fear was that I did not know his family at all. Whilst all my work colleagues are aware of my Krishna Consciousness, I tend to keep it low-key. The next day I went to the Temple to do my service. Amazingly,  Bhaktin  Meenaben brought  a  DVD  to watch.  <\/p>\n<p>Clueless about  the  content,  I  finished  in  the kitchen and sat down. To my disbelief the  DVD  was  about  Stoka  Krishna Prabhu, a fantastic devotee who had discovered that he had a particularly aggressive  cancer  but  dealt  with  his condition so perfectly and humbly that his godbrothers and sisters made his final days so beautiful. Had I known what the DVD  was about, I am not sure  that  I  would  have  wanted  to watch it. I went home and thought I must help Andrew in whatever small way I could. <\/p>\n<p> I was going away on the 21st and I had  agreed  to  help  devotees on  the 20th  and  therefore  the  only  day  I could see Andrew was Thursday 19th. I  decided  that  I  could  take  some paraphernalia with me and would seek permission from Andrew&#8217;s mother to use them. However, when I arrived at the  hospital,  only  Andrew&#8217;s  friends from London were there. Andrew was looking slightly better. The bandages from his head and mitten on his right hand  were  removed.  He  was responding  by  nodding  his  head.  I explained to him that I had holy water that  I  had  purchased  in  Mauritius, which had come from 108 holy places and  asked  for  his  consent  to  place some on his head and body. Andrew nodded in approval. Saying the maha mantra  I  sprinkled  water  onto  his head, some over his body and a tiny bit on his lips. I then slowly explained to him that I had some dust from Lord Jagannath  from  Jagannath  Puri.  <\/p>\n<p>I informed  him  that  I  wanted  to  put some on his head and then rub the rest into his hand, the only accessible area. Andrew nodded his head. I proceeded, again  chanting  as  I  did.  Finally,  I informed Andrew that I was given a very  special  garland  from  Gaura Purmina festival from Belgrave Road. Rasika  Devi  Dasi  had  given  the garland  to  me.  It  was  beautiful.  I asked  Andrew  if  I  could  put  the garland  over  his  wrist.  Andrew agreed. With this, I advised Andrew that I had to go. He held my fingers and squeezed my fingers very tightly. I  took  this  to  be  his  way  of saying thanks.  <\/p>\n<p>I  left  the  hospital,  never expecting  to  see  Andrew  again  but feeling  happy  that  I  had  said  my goodbye. I worried about Andrew while I was away and was certain that he would be dead by the time I get back. Imagine the shock when I got into the office to be told that he was doing really well. As  my  colleagues  were  sharing  the news with  me, they were all saying that  I  had  cured  him.  I  went  to the hospital on Friday 5 May and found Andrew, fully dressed, drinking tea &amp; eating  biscuits&#8230;  a  miracle.  <\/p>\n<p>Andrew has really received Krishna&#8217;s mercy. I know  that  I  did  not  do  anything. Association  with  devotees  is  so powerful. The gift in Lord Krishna&#8217;s puzzle come in pieces but when all the segments are put together, the results are  astronomical.  Without  devotee association,  none  of  these  amazing pieces would have come together but working  as  a  team  to  reach  Lord Krishna  has  really  proved  fantastic. Andrew apparently had undergone a further  emergency  operation  on  13 April  to  remove  a  secondary aggressive  tumour.  During  the operation he had suffered a stroke and then went into a coma. With no hope of recovery, the doctors had stopped treatment and were waiting for him to die. <\/p>\n<p> Krishna  has  used  me  as  his instrument, 1) to help Andrew, 2) to give  me  a  sharp  lesson  in understanding  that  no  matter  how much we feel useless, every devotee has a part to play and 3) That devotee association  is  vitally  important  to spiritual development. Who am I? I am really proud to admit that I am a devotee of Lord Krishna. <\/p>\n<p>All  glories  to  Srila  Prabhupada,  all glories  to  Shree  Shree  Krishna  &amp; Radharani,  all  glories  to  Their Lordships  Pancha Tattva.  Leicester Yatra Ki Jay!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/i.imgur.com\/C6HfPpw.jpg\" alt=\"Hare Krishna\" \/><strong>By &#8220;an insignificant soul&#8221;<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>  A colleague, Andrew, began to have headaches  at the  end  of  January.  It took about 3 weeks to discover that he had a brain tumour and needed urgent surgery.  Andrew&#8217;s  father  died  of cancer and had spent a year travelling the world because he had feared that he never wanted to be like his father who had always put off enjoying life until later because it was not meant to be.   Andrew had a successful operation and  within  days  was  at  home recovering. However, the tumour was malignant.  Andrew  was  devastated but determined to fight.  On  Tuesday  18  April  Andrew&#8217;s stepfather  phoned  the  office  and explained that Andrew had been in a semi-coma  for  a  few  days  and  his condition  was  critical.  He  suggested that colleagues visit to say goodbye. Everyone  was  devastated  by  this news.  My  manager  intended  to  go immediately, I agreed to go with him because I felt helpless sitting at my desk worrying about him.   It was awful seeing a body that was unrecognisable as a person I had associated with him for  many years. Andrew had a huge bandage on his head. His eyes were struggling  to  focus.  He  had  a tracheotomy in his throat so he could not speak and a massive bandage on his  right  hand  to  stop  him  from pulling  his  drips  out.  The  left  hand side of his body was paralysed. It was a terrible sight but I put this aside and spoke  to  Andrew  as  I  would  have done if he was healthy. As I went to leave  and  said  goodbye  to  him,  he raised his right hand to wave bye to me.  Andrew&#8217;s  mother  was  amazed, this was the first time he had done this since going into a coma. 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